It’s a question we’ve all asked ourselves many times, “why am I here?” It’s a simple question, yet it’s meaning can be so broad. Why am I here on earth? Why am in the country? Why am I in this job? Why am I in this relationship? Why am I in this situation? Why am I in this moment?
Right now, I’m asking myself the same question. Why am I here? In this town? Having met these people I would have never met if I hadn’t moved. Why am I here, doing the work I’m doing and what bigger purpose is it for?
I moved to the town on purely a gut feeling that this is where I’m supposed to be. I just felt it undeniably. Within 3 weeks of coming here to “check it out” I moved. In so many ways everything has fallen into place so easily that it really makes you stop and ask. Why am I here? Why was I drawn to this place and why has it so quickly and comfortably become home? I’ve met some great people who quickly become great friends. The kind of friends who you feel you’ve always known. Am I here to be a part of their lives or they a part of mine?
This past week, one of the dear friends I have met here in this new town passed away. She was a very loving vibrant person who despite having health issues always had a smile. She and her husband were together a very long time and he will most certainly be lost without her. I’ve spent more time with the two of them since I’ve moved here 2 1/2 years ago than with any other friends I’ve made. I’ve gotten to know their kids & grandkids and they’ve become friends with my Dad and Son. She will be missed. 🙏🏼
And again I wonder, why am I here? I’ve had my share of dealing with the passing away of loved ones and now I seem to have been put in a surrounding where I’m interacting with others who have lost a loved one and are looking to rebuild their lives, or find a new purpose, a reason for trying to understand why they are still here. Was I put in their lives to be a comfort to them in dealing with death or are they comforting me in our now shared grief?
I don’t still fully understand yet why I’m here. In this town, at this moment in time, in this neighborhood, in this line of work, meeting these people. But I do know it’s for a reason, someone higher up is trying to ensure I understand the lessons I need to learn to become the version of me I’m meant to become. I hope one day it will be clear and I’ll know exactly why I’m here.
Until then, to my dear friend Vinny, who lost is soulmate this week, the one he was supposed to spend the rest of his life with, I’d like to say that your dear Wanda, instead, got to spend the rest of her life with you. And I don’t believe she would have wanted it any other way. 🙏🏼✨❤️